Elica: At this point, it would have been about a year since we’d met and I was slowly beginning to have a change of heart about him.
There were a few reasons for this.
One was that I was healing and it opened me up to something real again. Plus, I also knew him a little bit better. But most importantly, I had this gut feeling which I really couldn’t explain. I knew that he wanted to go out with me and I knew that once I said yes, it would be serious, it wouldn’t be a fling—I just knew it.
That’s finally where I was at and I said to myself, “Maybe it’s time… maybe I’ll ask him out.”
With this intention in mind, I soon went to our mutual friend’s house.
I asked her, “Is Amitayus still around?”
She said, “No, he’s just gone to Darwin.”
I thought, ‘Oh well, maybe it just wasn’t meant to be…’ and went on my way.
We had a lot of these misses and when I eventually returned to the island, he was still somewhere in Australia.
But one day, he also returned…
How we almost drifted away again, this time for good
Amitayus: I did return only to leave good.
After seven years of living there, I decided I was done—I was leaving Koh Phangan! I had a month there and it was to pack everything up and cut ties with the island for good.
