Amitayus: I asked her out again and she stood me up.
Elica: When I stood him up it was because I honestly completely forgot! I really didn’t mean to and I actually felt terrible about it!
Amitayus: I asked her out again she said yes, then canceled last minute.
Elica: I’d been on the island for a while by now. Although I hadn’t had an open relationship before, during my first year there I did take casual partners as a part of my recovery, moving on and expanding process.
Saying that though, deep down, I knew that being in open relationships was not going to be my ultimate path. My star sign is Cancer and being a water sign, I find I’m very deep rather than broad. Many people will go the more horizontal way, but for me to connect, I need to be deep.
Meanwhile, I caught myself out a few times with Amitayus. Once, I actually stalked his Facebook, as you do. When I saw photos of him officiating his best friend’s marriage ceremony, I thought to myself, ‘I wonder if I’ll marry him one day…’ This jolted me into, ‘What am I thinking?!’ and I immediately got off Facebook!
You know how you have all those insights, knowings and suggestions and you just ignore them and put them away? It was like that.
One night we were in a hall and I was helping with a ritual. He took a photo of me and I didn’t know at the time but he apparently kept it. All these little subconscious things were happening to both of us.
Elica: The reason I would always say no when he asked me out was because intuitively, I felt things might be different with him. I knew as soon as he made me do partner yoga with him, I’d be too attracted to him and I’d want to go deep. So I said no all the time; I wasn’t ready for ‘deep’ yet because of the previous experience I’d had.
We drift away but life doesn’t allow it
Amitayus: Meanwhile, I was still following my path which took me to India for a while. Wanting to try out giving some workshops and doing some teachings in a western environment, I then made my way to Australia and ended up in Melbourne. Elica happened to be there at the same time—the first time she’d returned since she’d left for Koh Phangan. This was completely unplanned, a genuine coincidence.
Elica: Yes, it was.
Amitayus: We hung out in Melbourne casually a few times with friends. I asked her out again to the Art Museum. She said she had to do her taxes.
Another time, we ended up hanging out with a mutual friend. Elica’s a pretty good astrologer and she was looking at my chart. She said, “You know, you should be with a Cancerian woman with a Gemini rising.”
Elica: That’s me!
Amitayus: Which made me wonder, ‘Is she hitting on me?’ She claims that she wasn’t.
Elica: I wasn’t! I was really just reading his chart.
Amitayus: Sure you were.
She told me later she was actually starting to consider asking me out around then.
