I wanted to run after Nora.
I also wanted to read that number again.
I put the lid back on before I did either.
I could lose my job.
***
That night, I entered the amount into my loan calculator.
The balance vanished.
I sat looking at the zero, imagining taking my parents out to dinner without checking what I'd have left afterward.
Then I closed the laptop. I needed to refuse while I could still make myself do it.
The balance vanished.
The next morning, I called the lawyer and said I wanted to refuse the inheritance.
"Are you certain?"
I looked at the loan reminder on my laptop.
Saying no meant years more of those payments, but my dream job was at risk now, and I needed to save it.
"Yes," I said. "Send me what I need to sign."
"Are you certain?"
I called Nora before leaving for work.