When Ethan came home depleted, he often behaved as though being tired completed his responsibilities for the day.
If I told him I was tired too, he heard me.
But my exhaustion rarely changed what he did.
It registered the way rain registers when you’re safely indoors.
You know it exists.
You simply don’t feel wet.
I don’t think Ethan was intentionally cruel.
He had simply spent thirty-three years learning that his exhaustion mattered first.
No one had ever told him that directly.
Sylvia had taught it through actions.
Every time something became difficult, she made it easier.
Every time Ethan became uncomfortable, she rushed in.
Every time life offered him a lesson in enduring inconvenience, Sylvia often removed the inconvenience before the lesson could arrive.
Then June got sick.
Her fever started on a Thursday.
At first, it was 99.8.
Her pediatrician told me to monitor it and call if it passed 101.
By six that evening, it was 101.4.
I called.
Tylenol.
Monitor.
Call again at 102.
At ten that night, the thermometer read 102.3.
More Tylenol.
More watching.
At one in the morning, June’s temperature reached 104.1.
I called the pediatrician again.
This time she didn’t hesitate.
“Take her directly to the ER.”
