The other was Dr. Walsh.
“She’s stable,” the doctor said, “but stress is not an abstract concern. I allowed the livestream because she insisted, and because I understand the psychological importance. But this cannot continue indefinitely.”
“I understand,” Adrian replied.
“Do you?” Dr. Walsh asked. “Because men like you often confuse control with care.”
There was a pause.
Then Adrian said, “That is a fair criticism.”
I almost smiled in the dark.
Dr. Walsh continued, “She has been controlled enough. Let her make decisions. But make sure she understands the cost of making them while her body is trying to heal.”
“I will.”
Footsteps moved away.
A moment later, Adrian entered quietly. He stopped when he saw my eyes open.
“I didn’t mean to wake you.”
“You didn’t.”
He came to the bedside. “How are you feeling?”
“Like everyone keeps asking me that because the real answer would be inconvenient.”
His mouth twitched. “Your mother used to answer questions like that.”
“Did she?”
“All the time.”
I studied him in the dim light. “Tell me something true about her.”
He sat down.
For a while, he said nothing. Then he looked at the window, where the reflection of the room floated over the darkness.
“She hated roses,” he said.
That surprised me. “Everyone sent roses when she died.”
“She would have thrown them out.”
A laugh rose in my throat, gentler this time. “She loved daisies.”
“She said roses tried too hard.”
That sounded like her.
“What else?”
“She sang when she cooked. Badly.”
“She did.”
“She read the last page of books first.”
“She told me that was efficient.”
“She was afraid of deep water but loved boats.”
I looked at him.
He smiled faintly. “She said fear should not be allowed to make all the decisions.”
Tears warmed my eyes.
For so long, my mother had existed in my memory as my mother only. I had forgotten she had once been young. In love. Funny. Afraid. Brave in ways that had nothing to do with raising me alone.
“Why did she leave you?” I asked.
Adrian’s smile faded.
“Because I failed her.”
It was not the answer I expected.
He leaned forward, elbows on his knees. “My father threatened to cut me out of the company if I stayed with her. I was young enough to think that mattered. Proud enough to think I could fix everything later. I asked her to wait while I handled things.”
“She didn’t?”
“No. She told me a woman should never wait quietly while a man negotiates her worth.”
My mother.
A tear slipped down my temple into my hair.
“I went after her,” he said. “But she had disappeared. I received one letter months later. She wrote that she was safe and that I should not look for her.”
“Did you?”
“For years.”
“Not hard enough,” I said.
The words came out before I could soften them.
Adrian accepted them without flinching. “No. Not hard enough.”
Silence settled again.
“I don’t know how to feel about you,” I admitted.
“You don’t owe me anything.”
“I might need you.”
“That is different.”
I turned my hand palm-up on the blanket. After a moment, he placed his hand over mine, carefully avoiding the bruises.
His hand was warm.
“I don’t need another man deciding my life,” I said.
“I know.”
“But I don’t want to do this alone.”
His fingers tightened slightly. “You won’t.”
In the morning, Marianne returned with news.
“We found Clara Whitcomb.”
My heart jumped. “Where is she?”
“At her home outside Boulder. She agreed to speak with me, but only in person, and only to you.”
“I can’t go anywhere.”
“I explained that.”
“And?”
“She said she has waited twenty-seven years. She can wait another few days, but not much longer.”
Adrian, who had been reviewing documents near the window, looked up sharply. “What does that mean?”
Marianne’s expression was troubled. “She sounded frightened.”
“Of Victor?”
“Not only Victor.”
A cold prickle moved through me.
Marianne placed a sealed plastic evidence sleeve on the side table. Inside was a folded program from the memorial service.
“What is that?” I asked.
“It was delivered to the hospital front desk this morning. Addressed to Emma Frost.”
Adrian crossed the room. “Who delivered it?”
“Courier. Paid in cash.”
I stared at the program.
