“Can I watch?” I asked.
“No,” Adrian said at once.
“Yes,” Marianne said at the same time.
They looked at each other.
“I am her doctor now?” Adrian asked dryly.
“No,” Marianne replied. “And neither am I. But emotionally, she may need to see what story is being told about her.”
“I don’t need to see him lie over an empty casket,” Adrian said.
“No,” I said quietly. “I do.”
His eyes returned to me.
“I need to know what version of me he is burying.”
The memorial was held the next afternoon in a stone chapel with tall windows overlooking a frozen garden.
I watched from my hospital bed on a secure livestream arranged by Marianne through someone who knew someone who owed Adrian a favor. I did not ask for details. There were some doors I was not ready to understand.
The camera angle was fixed from the balcony. It showed rows of mourners in dark clothing, white flowers arranged around a framed portrait of me, and Victor standing near the front.
