“I know.”
“It was me.”
The words landed heavily.
I had heard them from Celeste.
Then Vanessa.
I had read the documents.
But now my son was finally saying them himself.
“I thought if you were living up here alone, you’d want to be closer to us again.”
He began crying.
“I thought you’d get lonely.”
I stared at him.
“Jared, I was already lonely.”
He looked up.
“I was living in your house, surrounded by people, and I was lonely every single day.”
His face crumpled.
“I know, Mom.”
“No.
I don’t think you do.”
My voice shook.
“I cleaned your home.
Cooked your meals.
Cared for your father while he was dying.
And every day, I tried to make myself smaller so I wouldn’t inconvenience you.”
He covered his face.
I continued.
“Then when he died, I looked at you and waited for you to defend me.”