Until the afternoon I finally met her.
“I’ve wanted to speak to you for weeks,” Rosa said.
Something in her voice made me forget my nausea.
“About what?”
She set the trash bag she was holding on the floor.
“Your husband told me I wasn’t supposed to contact you.”
I gave a nervous laugh.
“What? Why?”
“He was very clear. If I had a question, I should call him. Never you.”
“Why?”
“I don’t know.”
Rosa glanced toward the hallway again.
“At first, I thought maybe you were both very private. Then I started finding things.”
My stomach tightened.
“What things?”
“You need to see what I take out of his office trash every Wednesday.”
She crouched beside her cleaning supplies and pulled out a grocery bag.
Inside were several bundles wrapped in dark red cloth and tied with black thread.
I stared at them.
“What are those?”
“Things from his office trash.”
“Why are they wrapped like that?”
“He wraps them before throwing them away.”
Rosa placed one bundle on the counter.
“The second week I worked here, the office trash bag tore and one fell into my cart. I opened it later. Then I found another.”
“And another?”
She nodded.
“Often enough that I started keeping them after I saw your name.”
My hand froze above the black thread.
“My name?”
“You should open it.”
My first instinct was to call Ethan.
Instead, I picked up the bundle.
Inside were torn pieces of paper.
Then I saw my name printed on one of them.
I fitted two pieces together.
Most of the letter was missing, but several phrases remained.
***“…pleased to invite you…”***
***“…final interview…”***
***“…October…”***
I sat down.
—
Months earlier, I had almost convinced myself not to apply for a senior position.
Ethan sat beside me on the couch.
“What if I’m not ready?”
“Then they’ll tell you no. Just apply, Mal.”
So I did.
Weeks passed without an answer.
One evening, Ethan poured me a glass of wine.
“They probably went in another direction.”
“I knew I wasn’t ready.”
He wrapped an arm around me.
“Maybe it’s better. You’re already exhausted.”
I leaned against him and believed every word.
Now I was holding part of a letter proving I had reached the final interview stage.
“There’s more,” Rosa said quietly.
Another bundle contained an envelope addressed to me and part of a leadership program notice.
Then I found a handwritten note.
***“Please call me. Don’t let this opportunity pass again, Mallory.”***
I knew the handwriting immediately.
Lena.
A former mentor I hadn’t spoken with in almost a year.
“Where exactly did you find these?”
“At the bottom of his trash. Under other papers.”
Rosa had unknowingly been removing evidence I was never supposed to see.
I pulled out my phone.
“Are you calling him?” she asked.
My thumb hovered over Ethan’s name.
The frightening part was that I wanted him to explain this away.
I wanted him to fix it.
“No,” I said. “Not yet. Thank you for telling me.”
