"Okay. Rest. I love you."
I couldn't say it back. I hung up and stayed pressed to the brick, watching through the hedge.
I sat on the edge of Lily's bed.
He stood in the lot another minute, checking his phone. I braced for his car door to open again. Instead, he pocketed the phone and disappeared into the restaurant. Only then did I breathe.
Then I walked to my own car on legs that didn't feel like mine.
I don't remember the drive home. I remember only taking the long way, the route that didn't pass any road he might double back on.
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Lily was spending the night at my mother's. The house was dark, exactly as I'd left it that morning. I sat on the edge of Lily's bed, still wearing my shoes.
Every memory turned inside out.
Then I started remembering.
The business trips. Denver, Columbus, Denver again, three times last spring. He never brought back a receipt.