again, and for a moment I thought she was shutting me out.
But then she said, “For which part?”
It was a fair question.
A devastating one.
I swallowed hard.
“For leaving,” I said. “For not asking better questions before I did. For assuming silence meant there was nothing left. For making grief something we had to survive separately.”
She turned her face slightly toward me.
“And for being angry that I didn’t tell you?”
I took a breath.
“Yes,” I said. “For that too.”
A faint line appeared between her brows.
“I didn’t handle it perfectly either.”
I almost denied it automatically, but she gave me a look that stopped me.
“I’m not saying that to make you feel better,” she said. “I made choices too. I hid things. I decided what you could and couldn’t handle. Maybe I was trying to protect you. Maybe I was protecting myself.
