I had entered and closed the door without making the slightest noise.
Once outside, I had to hold on to the entrance railing because my legs were trembling so much I thought I would collapse right there. The afternoon sun hit my face, and for a moment the world seemed too bright, too normal for the tragedy I had just discovered. Neighbors were walking their dogs, children were playing in the street. Life was continuing its course as if nothing had changed, as if my world hadn’t completely collapsed in a matter of minutes.
I walked to my car with automatic steps, not really thinking about where I was going. I sat down in the driver’s seat and allowed myself to cry for the first time in five years, since Arthur’s death. I cried for the betrayal, for my naïveté, for the years of unconditional love I had given a