“No. She doesn’t know anything.”
Then his voice dropped.
“Please don’t be mad at Dad.”
“I’m not.”
“Don’t be mad at Mom either.”
“Does Sophie know?”
That hurt more than the note.
Ben wasn’t worried about himself.
He was protecting both parents.
“Where’s your mom?”
“Inside paying for gas.”
“Put her phone back, sweetheart.”
“Where’s your mom?”
“Okay.”
“Ben? You haven’t done anything wrong.”
“Okay.”
He didn’t sound convinced.
***
Tara called that evening.
“I’m sorry Ben called you.”
“Okay.”
“Don’t apologize for him.”
Tara went quiet.
Then she said, “I don’t want him dragged into this.”
“He already is.”
“Sylvia, please.”
“He called me from your phone because he was scared I’d found something he wasn’t supposed to lose. He’s nine. Whatever is happening, he’s carrying more of it than either of you realizes.”
“Don’t apologize for him.”
“Adam and I are living apart.”
I gripped the counter. “For how long?”
“A few months. The renovations are real. They just weren’t the whole reason the kids stayed with you.”
“Why didn’t you tell me?”
“I wanted to. Adam asked me not to.”
“Why?”
“Adam and I are living apart.”
“Because he thought you’d tell him to come back home to me. We’ve tried…”
“If there’s still a marriage to save, I’d want him to try.”
Tara went quiet.
“That’s exactly what he was afraid you’d say.”
“I’m his mother.”
Tara went quiet.
“And he’s 40, Sylvia. You have to let him go at some point.”
That landed harder than I expected.
Tara continued, more gently. “Do you remember what you said when your cousin got divorced?”
I did.
“People give up too easily now.”
“And he’s 40, Sylvia.”