“I won’t ask you to.”
After they drove away, I found the green backpack beside the guest bed.
I didn’t open it, move it, or carry it downstairs so Ben couldn’t forget it again.
I left it exactly where he’d left it.
For years, I’d believed loving my family meant keeping every crack from showing.
But Ben hadn’t needed another person holding everything together.
I left it exactly where he’d left it.
He’d needed the adults around him to stop handing him pieces to carry.
So I left the backpack where it was.